I Feel Like a Shit!

Have you ever feel as I feel, pals? I don’t know, this is sucks you know. I think everything’s around me isn’t real and not really happening. How could I feel this shit? How? I think this year 一 2012 looks so freakin shit pathetic!! I really can’t describe how it feels. I just think all people around me kinda bitch! All of em! How could I say this fuckin word? God! Forgive me. I just can’t be strong anymore. I’m tired of all this holy shit! I hate all of em that pretended to be my friend and then left me like there’s no shit! How dog she/he is. How? I getting lil impatient of all this fuckin 2012. I’m tired, bitch!

TONIGHT I WANNA CRY

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I don’t know… Really don’t know. You know what? I just feel like a weirdo this week. Mmhhh :”””””( Yaammmnnn! Dang it! Holy crap. So? Whatta now? May I scream like a rocker? Or be screwed like Medusa? Yawn! Not really. I just love being myself. But, I HATE THIS WEEK. I HATE WHAT I FEEL ABOUT YOU! YOU! ONLY YOU! Everything that I do reminds me of YOU! WHY? WWWHHHYYYYYYY? Can you GO AWAY from my head? Just leave my mind alone. But, OKAY! CONGRATS. C-O-N-G-R-A-T-S. Cause you made me think about you EVERYDAY. But… not now (actually.. YES! S-T-I-L-L) But, I just try to hide that from you.

Sigh! How can I forget you? May I sing a song like ‘Bring Me The Horizon’? HAH? MAY I? And did YOU? HAH? I wrote in my lil’ note book >>> STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU. But, that’s useless. You are just like a cell who so small that I couldn’t see you. You.. I tried to kill what I feel but that just killing me softly. I COULDN’T. I couldn’t stop thinking about you. Don’t ask me why. Cause I don’t have a reason!

Young World

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Get it? Ya. What do you think about this photo? Really awesome, right? So? Mmhhh, for me… This photo’s so deeply. So touché :””””””””(

When I shed a tears

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“Strong emotions, such as sorrow or elation may lead to an increased production of tears, or crying” – Wikipedia

When I shed a tears in the front of you… Why you never know that’s (I cried) because of YOU? YOU! ONLY YOU! Enough!! I couldn’t be like stronger, anymore.. Please realize that. Sometimes, smiling doesn’t mean that I’m happy. It’s simply means I’m strong. But not now.. I’m not anymore.  Then, now… I realize when I read the proverb

A person who truly loves you, is someone who sees the pain in your eyes. While everyone else believes in the smile on your face.” -Proverb

From that proverb, I just realize… realize that you just like another. Who believes in the smile on my face. You couldn’t see that I’m sad, I’m unhappy, I’m not strong… I JUST REALIZE

When I crying, you just ask me, “Why?” And then I just say “I’m okay..” Then you shakin’ your head. Just that? You really couldn’t see. Couldn’t and couldn’t… Why? Because you not be the same anymore. You different now. Please, came back. But, I knew, you NEVER.

I just need someone who can sees the pain in my eyes when everyone else not. Not like you who like another who believes in my smile on my face.  Okay. Whatta now? May I say thank you for you? Because you had to be my bf? Made me smile. But, now… I wanna say thank you too cause you made me cry. Let me cry. Let me scream. Let me look at you go away. Let me know that you’ll be fine after that. Let me cry and cry. Just leave me alone now… Cause you just broke your promise. Let me do what I want. Let me hurt myself. Let me at all. LET ME CRY BECAUSE OF YOU!